All Change

21 March 2024

A transition is happening within me. 

Around 2 months ago I resigned from my job in banking, 2 weeks before I was due to return to work from maternity leave. I won’t go into the myriad factors which played into this decision but the overarching influence was not wanting to be away from the kids for 10+ hours a day. I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. My gut was telling me it wasn’t right for me, and I listened. 

The whole process has been very validating for me on a personal level. I’m doing what I feel is right, no matter what anyone else thinks. Once upon a time I don’t think I would have had the nerve to break with convention in this way, but I feel a sense of empowerment in following my heart.

I understand that there is a degree of privilege that affords me the freedom to make this decision. I have enough financial resources to sustain a period of uncertainty. Don’t get me wrong, we haven’t won the lottery; this decision will come at a cost. But I feel like that move to the bigger house, those expensive holidays, that can all take a backseat right now. I’m good with waiting a bit longer in order to have more autonomy over my time, and to be with my young children.

If that changes, I’ll change tack. I’ve always considered myself to be adaptable and I’m leaning into that now. 

This is probably coming across a bit somber for what is actually a really positive change in my life! I’m just having a moment and choosing to share that with you all. Maybe it’s the wine I’ve just consumed at some team drinks with my ex colleagues.

As I walked away from that bar, I’m sad but also glad to be saying goodbye to that part of my life. I had hoped that more old faces might have made it out to see me one last time, but the fact that they didn’t made me realise that people move on quickly. Time for me to focus on what’s next…

Stay tuned.